Last week , a comtempary of mine passed away. She was a long time blogger /writer and in her last years she struggled with her health and had to crowdfund for rides to the doctor and as a contemporary this sent me into a mini panic - I don't want the same thing to happen - It was like an internal tantrum because I don't want to be forgotten - but what control do we have over that. Can't I just write to write and activate to activate and who the fuck cares who knows or who likes . I used to love blogging - back when it felt more like a community. Now it feels so disjointed.
All of that rambling was to say - that I found your post helpful as a reframe
Amen, brother, amen. I have the same feelings around my newsletter. Sometimes it feels like play and I revel in the fun. Sometimes I worry about my I am not growing faster, getting more likes, getting more comments and so on. For now, I have gotten to a pretty good emotional place: this is for fun. It allows me to exercise some creative muscles that I don't get to use as much in other aspects of life. If it grows, yay. If it doesn't, that's okay. Like you wrote, L. Vago, the point is the doing. Or as the Bhagavad Gita says, you must do your dharma, your sacred work, but you have no control over any fruits of that work.
Last week , a comtempary of mine passed away. She was a long time blogger /writer and in her last years she struggled with her health and had to crowdfund for rides to the doctor and as a contemporary this sent me into a mini panic - I don't want the same thing to happen - It was like an internal tantrum because I don't want to be forgotten - but what control do we have over that. Can't I just write to write and activate to activate and who the fuck cares who knows or who likes . I used to love blogging - back when it felt more like a community. Now it feels so disjointed.
All of that rambling was to say - that I found your post helpful as a reframe
Amen, brother, amen. I have the same feelings around my newsletter. Sometimes it feels like play and I revel in the fun. Sometimes I worry about my I am not growing faster, getting more likes, getting more comments and so on. For now, I have gotten to a pretty good emotional place: this is for fun. It allows me to exercise some creative muscles that I don't get to use as much in other aspects of life. If it grows, yay. If it doesn't, that's okay. Like you wrote, L. Vago, the point is the doing. Or as the Bhagavad Gita says, you must do your dharma, your sacred work, but you have no control over any fruits of that work.